family ends with 'ily'

it saddens me that i have to cancel my plan to go out with my friends. but i always believe that family comes first.

so we went out today since today's a public holiday. we had so many plans at first, but after being stuck in a traffic congestion, my father decided to go to Tg Aru since the roads in kk were filled with cars and angry drivers.

aaandd my favourite couple goes to :

*gulp*

the most anticipated day's finally coming. i was really out of my head early this year, thinking what might happen when i receive the result. where will i go? am i going to fail? because right now, my future lies on that piece of paper i'll be getting tomorrow.

but now, i dont feel nervous at all. in fact, i dont feel anything, i'm numb. considering what happened in the past few days, it's safe to say that i've pretty much lost a bit of hope. *sigh* for now i'll just wait and see what happens.

The End.

the most devastating thing happened today. you see, i've been in a relationship for more than 2 years now. i never really liked him when i first met him. but after a while, i developed a strong feeling for him. after an accident back in 2009, i realized that he might be more than just 'a guy'. i decided then, that i would stick with him til the end.

loyalty means so much to me. nuff said.

Arachnophobic.

Have i told you that i'm arachnophobic? okay, i am.

Based on Wikipedia : Arachnophobia or arachnephobia (from the Greek: ἀράχνη, aráchnē, "spider" and φόβος, phóbos, "fear") is a specific phobia, the fear of spiders and other arachnids such as scorpions. People with arachnophobia tend to feel uneasy in any area they believe could harbor spiders or that has visible signs of their presence, such as webs. Some people scream, cry, have trouble breathing, excess sweating or even heart trouble when they come in contact with an area near spiders or their webs. In some extreme cases, even a picture or a realistic drawing of a spider can also trigger fear. Arachnophobics may also be afraid if they are touched by or touch an object that feels like a spider.

i have this extreme fear of spiders, in case you dont know. and cockroaches, too. and beetles, and bees. insects la, in general. especially those creepy crawlers. ESPECIALLY SPIDERS.

funny thing happened this morning. i woke up and got ready to send my mom and sisters to school. you know how cold it is early in the morning, right? so as usual, i started the engine and open up the windows as i didnt want to turn on the aircond. after dropping off my sisters, i continued driving until we reached this small roundabout. and as i looked to my right, there was a HUGE spider, crawling in through the opened window.

i started screaming, you have no idea how much i wanted to get out. but since there were so many cars behind, i had to continue stepping on the gas even though i wasnt even looking straight. i didnt even realize that i was already leaning on my mom. and i did all that driving-with-half-of-my-body-on-the-hand brake while screaming my lungs out.

my mom went panic, she was afraid that i would hit the car in front of us. teeheee. she told me several times that the spider had already gone out, but i couldnt believe her. i immediately stopped in front of a shop, and i was shaking, while looking back to the window. yes, the spider's gone. then i closed the window as fast as i could. it took almost a minute to stay calm before i continued driving.

i ended up spending the entire way with both hands on the left side of the steering wheel. my feet were shaky and i used only half the seat. when i reached home, i turned off the engine, crawled to the next seat, and got out.

moral of the story : don't let your windows opened.

lucky number 4

i seriously couldnt sleep last night; was anxiously thinking about MUET. i kept having thoughts, that made me even more nervous! i know, it's useless to think of all that at this stage. yalaaa. bukan boleh buat apa-apa lg kan? but i couldnt help it, i couldnt stand the anxiety. thank god i didnt kill myself. haha

i started staring at my phone this morning, 10 minutes before 9 a.m as i wanted to know the result ASAP! when the time turned from 8.59 to 9.00, i was like this crazy monkey; jumping up and down. after a few, no, A LOT of times sending the same message to mpm, i finally got the result.

Keputusan MUET:
Band: 4

i was screaming, and jumping, and running around in between these tiny spaces in my room. i was so excited. honestly, i never see it coming, considering how much mistakes i've done for the test. i wasnt confident with any of the papers, all of them were equally tough.

i was expecting to get band 3 since i screwed up some of the papers, namely speaking and writing, and listening. *ok, so, 3 out of 4 papers -__-" plus, my english isnt good enough. so, yes, i know where i stand. but the point is, i'm thankful. syukur alhamdulillah.

Malaysian University English Test

today's highlight?

i found out the result for end of '11 MUET will be out on 12th Jan 2012. that is three days ahead! gila! i was literally shaking like hell when i heard the news. seriously! i still am! i was even running around the house, sampaikan my mom pun panic.

mem : kenapa ni? (tinggi suara)
me : meeeeeeemmmmmmmmm!!!
mem : kenapaaaa?!! (mata makin besar)
me : result muet keluar hari khamis!
mem : *muntah

that's how it went. except for the part yang dia muntah la, i made that up. hahahahahha.

but seriously, i'm still shaking. honestly, i dont think i did well on the test. and for now, i dont think i have the strength to re-sit for another; not after what i've been through. it was tough, i tell you. i was almost crying when i sat for the listening test. i couldnt hear a thing! i even wrote down 'visual game' when, of course, obviously, it was 'video game'. pshh. ada ka patut.

"We read to know that we are not alone."
- C.S Lewis